
Life as I know it. These are the things that matter to me...my faith,my family,my friends
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
18

Tuesday, November 14, 2006
well....
Traveling was ok weather wise, but the traffic end of it, now that just simply sucked! wouldn't care to travel in that mess again for an incredibly long time. The hotel was great, the pool and waterslide fun. Saturday morning Linette and I headed to the scrapbook convention, some new products, and venders, not so many as in previous years...in the afternoon Cassandra and Josh joined us to attend Bodyworks at the Science museum...amazing! well worth the wait and cost...indescribable. Linette headed home saturday we stayed until sunday, but we pretty much stayed in the hotel. ...I underestimated the time and energy it takes to keep track of 5 little people....I'm still tired. We went out to eat sunday for Cassandra's birthday, (will post her birthday another day, she deserves her own post for this milestone, year 18 yikes!) arrived home to a freezing home, the furnace stopped working sometime during the weekend, and one of the hard-wired smoke detectors back up batteries was beeping a low battery warning....ok after an hour of the beeping I was ready to scream...Kevin arrived home (he had to take josh back to austin so was behind us by an hour or so) we pretty much tracked and tried to determine just where the darn beeping was coming from, when finally located of course neither of us remembered how to take the battery out...good grief it is a nightmare of course the little piece that fell out as kevin finally figured out how to open the door turned out to be a major and important item....needless to say when we finally replaced the batter, (which required a trip to the store to buy a battery, we have every other battery size under the sun but not a 9 volt) the door wouldn't close completely thus the beeping continues, since the detector couldn't detect the new battery....a note if you want to drive some one crazy this would work, the beeping every two minutes is annoying to say the least...so I decide to try....which was simply to just disconnect the whole thing, sounded good in theory...but! perhaps not so great in practice...needless to say we are replacing the entire unit....ahhhh but there is no more beeping. Life is good. as for the no heat that we didn't get fixed until yesterday afternoon, so sunday night everyone slept in our bedroom, (we have a small space heater) there were bodies everywhere...but hey it was toasty warm, even the dog slept in the room, of course she shook all night, we think it was the trauma from hearing the beeping most of the weekend...poor dog. So for now all is good, no more home issues, things are put away from the weekend, just need to catch up on sleep :) (ok I know that isn't going to happen) and honestly I don't need to go away for a very long long time.
Friday, November 10, 2006
It's snowing....
ok if I didn't have to travel in the white stuff that would be smiley face. It is the pretty snow, white and fluffy,perfect for snowmen and snowballs, this snow I like....unless I have to travel in it. Bother one can't have it perfect can you?
Trying to pack for 5 little people, assuming Josh and Cassandra can handle their own packing. (Beckie isn't able to join us on this weekend get away) and yes you did read the numbers correctly we do have "5" little people (under the age of 5) the end of this week has been an enormous adjustment for all. Of course I didn't take the day of entirely, just done early, so trying to juggle work, with packing and all sorts of other life issues, has me wondering why? do we ever want to leave home? Wondering if I am remembering everything...knowing I won't. Hoping the weather cooperates so driving won't be too much of a challenge, (we have to take two cars, those numbers above won't work in one vehicle) which is why I am worried about driving, usually Kevin drives and I never worry at all about the weather....oh bother.
lot's planned, so much to do, thinking I'm meeting myself as I move thru the house, trying to get everything in order.
have a great weekend....I plan to.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
it's wednesday


Monday, November 06, 2006
10 years
120 months
520 weeks
3650 days (give or take leap year dates)
unmeasurable moments, events, milestones......
It was 10 years ago today that my mom died. I can remember the day vividly. I can recall feelings so clearly that my body still reacts today. I remember moments so completely, the look on some one's face, the hug from a friend, seeing my dad cry, the kindness showed by so many.
The overwhelming emotions, shock, uncertainty, fear, sadness, emptiness, amazed a body could feel so much and still function. Decisions being made, and throughout the whole process inside I was fighting it with everything I had...honestly I was horrified when I stood in a room full of caskets, and yet the decisions had to be made, picking out a cemetery plot, the very kind man presenting places as easily as a Realtor would present land to you...wrong on so very many levels...my dad looking to me for answers (when did that happen, I still felt like a kid) "what do you think" he asked at a particular plot, inside I thought does it really matter, do you think she cares if she has a view? what I spoke was I think it will work. ( I have learned now that the plot isn't for the person who died, it truly for those left behind, I have over the years found peace in visiting that little piece of land that 10 years ago I in disbelief chose.)
I struggled for so long with the numbers, at first it was it's been a week, then two, wow now it's a month. I wondered if the 6th would ever just be a number again in my life. I knew when it was coming, I could tell you how long it had been faster than taking a breath. eventually it did stop being so big...although November 6th will forever be etched in my memory. I expected holidays to be bad the first year, they were and yet we got thru them and it wasn't so dreary and sad we survived, I learned it isn't that obvious that gets you it's the unexpected...my birthday was horrible, I was crabby, tense, unpleasant the whole day, no idea why until later that night when the phone rang and I realized I had been waiting for her to call, something she had done every year without fail, something until then I had not even registered as important until it was gone. I had simply took it for granted. The books written on grief are endless I read a good share of them, I never did find the answer, rather I found the answers are there inside you and you need to be ready to see them before you can accept them. I have moments of anger at her, for not taking better care of herself, for missing so much in our lives, those are brief thankfully and actually pretty selfish on my part. I have moments of tears, when I just simply miss my mom.
and I have moments of complete joy that she was in my life, no matter how short. I wonder what she thinks of her grandchildren, I have often sensed her at moments in their lives, I found comfort in thinking she was still a part of them,watching over them.and I wonder what she thinks of the new little ones in our lives, I know she would have loved them as completely as she did each of the other grandkids. I wonder what she would think of the person I have become... at times there are questions I would love to ask, advice I wish I had, just to simply see her, take in her face, her smell, her love. I have learned we miss most what we can't have. and I do miss her still 10 years later.
Friday, November 03, 2006
Trick or Treat


Thursday, November 02, 2006
candy overload



Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Monday, October 30, 2006
an extra hour.....
to clean.....ughhhhh nope wouldn't waste an extra anything on that!
to do paperwork..... see above :)
so what did I do with the extra hour I received on Sunday...not a clue.
it would seem I had high hopes for that hour, every fall I am so excited at the idea I get an extra hour of sleep....the past few years I have yet to register that hour in sleep time.
once a year we have a 25 hour day...so much potential, so many options....and sadly I have yet to use it in a truly awesome manner.
the only thing I really noticed about the time change was that little people actually went to bed at 8pm with very little fuss (translate only fussed for 5 minutes) of course they were up at 6:30 with very little fuss also. it's all about the trade off. some occupants of the house seem a tad more crabby than normal for now we will write it off to the time change, no idea what excuse we will use by weeks end :)
and so another daylight savings time has passed and before I will get another 25 hour day I will have to first go thru a time loss (so sad, not even going to think about that sad sad event) hope you used your extra hour in a fun way....and if any of you actually got an extra hour of sleep I really don't want to hear about it.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
awkward
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Go Fish
They have a new album out called Snow a compilation of Christmas songs...love it! Love their style....my mother in law commented that I was pushing the season....I had it playing today. with Go Fish their music is always in season.
It's been fun watching them grow in their music and performing. My friend Shirley introduced me to their music, (thanks shirley!) so many years ago...always excited to here that they are going to be performing nearby.
check out their website www.gofishguys.com you can hear some of their songs, read some info on the group. great site to explore.
and if you get the chance to see them in concert....you will not be disappointed.
I'm off to listen to some more Christmas music, gee might even put me in the mood for some snow :)
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Fall pics...winter weather.......



Monday, October 23, 2006
MEA weekend


Thursday, October 19, 2006
Happy Mail Day!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006
so much for good intentions

Monday, October 16, 2006
where did the weekend go?
Saturday I went to Mankato shopping, I was actually looking forward to it, alone, no kids, simple, yeah right that lasted until I arrived in Mankato where apparently everyone in southern minnesota decided to go also. Have I mentioned I don't like crowds....ummmm yeah this was so not peaceful. I was so happy to return home to the houseful of little people.
Sunday I went to the Odin craft mill, found some x-mas gifts. Glad the crowds were small, don't think I could have handled another repeat of Saturday. Last night we went to the movie Open Season, loved watching Yahaira watch the movie, she laughed and laughed and ate a lot! of popcorn, Anthony was quoting lines to me afterwards so cool. Actually a pretty good movie, some great one liners.
I think we are adjusting to the new little one, still kinda scary holding him and moving him, so afraid we might hurt him unintentionally, but I guess they wouldn't have released him from the hospital if that were an issue. He seems to be adjusting to us also, although he still doesn't like noise, oh boy that has been fun!
well time for baths and hopefully bedtime, one can hope right?
Deb
Friday, October 13, 2006
Friday the 13th
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Snow

Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Fall

Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Kids Volleyball fun night

Monday, October 09, 2006
Fire Safety Week

Sunday, October 08, 2006
BuddyWalk


Saturday, October 07, 2006
Homecoming




Friday, October 06, 2006
and one more






have a great weekend.
Debbie
Thursday, October 05, 2006
NO Pets!!!!!

At first she was a bit uncertain as to what exactly this was, but it didn't take long for Rose to overcome any hesitation. soon she was reaching into the pen trying to touch the goats, honestly I think if we had put her inside the pen she would have been thrilled. no fear, not even a little.

Anthony just loved putting quarters into the food dispenser and collecting the pellets, giving them to the goats was another story, eventually he warmed up, but the "fun" for him was definitely getting the food.



Wednesday, October 04, 2006
The Little Mermaid



We are the proud owners of the newly released "Little Mermaid" on DVD. Insert happy dance here.Naturally I ventured to Pamida yesterday to purchase a copy, actually two, when Linette found out I was going she asked me to pick her up a copy. I have been so excited about the re-release of this movie. I simply love! it. (one could ponder that the release of a cartoon is the highlight of my week, you are a brave person if you care to analyze that) Yahaira first discovered the little mermaid thru a book, it was the one book she always ask to have read over and over. I found another "mermaid" book on cd which she also loves listening to. It was so fun last night watching the movie with her, she didn't move, and her only comments were "mom, mermaid, see?" she was so completely caught up in the magic of the movie.. Cassandra was watching with us, and Yahaira would mimic Cassandra. If Cassandra layed on her tummy so did Yahiaira, if Cassandra laughed so did Yahaira....for as much as these two fight, Yahaira truly does look up to her big sister...so cool to see. I'm so excited that I get to share this movie with yet another little person in my life, when it was first released my girls were at the perfect age for this story, it was so amazing to experience with them and now here we are years later and I get another opportunity...how cool is that? One of the highlights of our Disney trip,several years ago, was getting to see the girls meet the Little Mermaid. By the time we ventured to Disney World they were a bit beyond the first awe of the movie, but they were still excited to visit a piece of their childhood...it was truly a magical experience. Thinking another trip to Florida needs to be planned, just so the new little people in our life can experience the magic for themselves.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Homecoming week










